71st Day of Blaze - AOK 21
Elyna had known death before. She had dealt it with her own hands, by the edge of her sword or on the tip of a well placed arrow. It was never something she did lightly, choosing to preserve life if there was ever a chance. But she was loyal. Devoted to her homeland and the people who she served. She would deal in death it meant the protection of the vulnerable; of those who could not defend themselves. The Skyrider had faced death herself. She had watched the pale sky fading away, taking with it the last breath of her frozen lungs. Malcolm had saved her life that day. Elyna knew that she had slipped into oblivion, it was only by his actions that she had awoken. She hadn’t minded death. Her passing had served a purpose, it had saved a little boy. A prince of the kingdom. Malcolm’s youngest son.
Lady Burhan had lost relatives to the passing of age or the grip of illness. To accident, ill fate, bad judgement and violence she had lost friends and young people she had worked alongside.
They told her that Malcolm was dead. Her mother hadn’t even been cruel, simply patted her on the hand and squeezed her shoulder with the gentle words, ‘you see my love, it just wasn’t meant to be.’
Beatrice had not known of her previous attachments in Renmere. The knowledge of Elyna’s failed engagement to a disgraced Duke seemed to answer her unspoken questions. Billy had kept her own council, and Emily remained a constant shadow at her side. As though her fellow Skyrider expected something, at any moment. But nothing has happened. There had only been an unsettling quiet.
For Bloom Elyna had danced. The noble woman had made new acquaintances and a few tentative friendships. She had found her rhythm in Aramane and blossomed like the trees that lined the Parade streets. Confident in a way that she had never been before she had laughed, chatted and engaged in mild flirtations with men and women alike. She had learnt to play a better hand of cards and her dancing was much improved after so much practise.
In the mornings, she trained with Emily, secure in the knowledge that once all this socialisation was complete she would return to her life in Renmere and the Iron Hand. She would marry the love who held her heart and their lives would be good lives.
There had been rumours circulating about a number of men in the hope of catching her interest. Although gossip continued, as Lady Burhan seemed to show no particular favour to any potential suitor to the exasperation of her Mother and amusement of Beatrice.
They told her that Malcolm was dead. How could that be so? He was not a man like other men. He was godlike, immortal and beyond the things that crippled the world. How could an accident see his end? Something so simple and tragic would not kill Malcolm, could not. Had not. She was sure. He was hers and she was his. Elyna knew it with the certainty that she knew her heart was still beating. If Malcolm’s heart had stopped, then so too would her own. She knew that.
Elyna had done all that they asked her. She had buried herself in high society and even found some genuine enjoyment. Where was her reward? Where was her wolf? Her fingertips brushed the small stone that remained in her pocket. How many times a day did she reach out to it, the solid weight a reminder of the man who had gifted it. She looked out across the ballroom floor and raised her drink of lemonade to her lips. Dancers spun past in a waltz, the violin lifted in its refrain.
A hundred candles glittered from the walls and left tantalising dark corners where members of the nobility giggled and tried to hide their sins. Her Mother was talking to a Lord. Beatrice was engaged in cards. Billy was dancing and Emily was perched by the table of food, watching her across the room like a hawk. The way she always watched her these days, as though at any moment she expected Elyna to shatter. As though she had been made of fine porcelain, a piece that had been dropped and cracked too many times. Beautiful yes, but broken to the trained eye.
Elyna surveyed the room and took a final sip. Watched it all from a distance, removed from her own body. It was someone else’s life, it belonged to the Burhans. Detached from her body she watched as she accepted the next dance from a tall young man with scruffy brown hair. She didn’t know his name, she didn’t care. She smiled at him, the motion automatic as he led her onto the dancefloor. This life was no longer her own, and there was no reason to stay. Soon it would be over.